On the edge of civilization...

I HAVE THE INTERNET!!!!

Possibly one of the only people here, other than subway!
It is amazing how you can feel so lost without something that you lived most of your life without knowing...Can you honestly tell me that you would be ok going to nowhere without your computer? It is almost as bad as that feeling of not having your cell phone, but you are far enough from home that you cant go back. But not me, not now... I have made it big with the internet.

Things are looking up on the job market for me. I have gotten my resume in the right hands at a place that I wanted to work before I decided to move here...This could be huge. I just have to pray that mine is the one that stands out. The are planning to expand by 800 in the next ten years, hopefully I will be one of them. The house is not doing so well...I see the future being me and the huge weight of a house note pulling me down from financial success. Again, I just have to pray about it. He has answered all my prayers to this point, and I have no doubt that he will do the same for this one.

It is wedding season:
I have been trying to plan my spring, and figure out who, when and where...I will officially be going to birmingham every weekend from the end of March all the way through May. So much travelling. Good thing I love these girls, or this would be alot harder. So I am trying to save as much as I can now, with the money I don't have, so that when I am having to buy gas for my weekend trips, I am not broke...not to mention I will need some really good, and strong wine by that time. No one here has ever heard of wine, so I must depend on birmingham to satisfy my cravings.
Do they make low calorie wine? Did I mention I am working very hard to get into dresses for 2 weddings??? The last thing any person wants is to be unhappy with themselves at their best friends wedding.

So I have officially been a bridesmaid many times, but as the movie jokes, never a bride... I want to pout about that a little, but I think instead I am going to be thankful. I am very blessed that god has led me away from the few serious relationships that I have had, and allowed me a chance to find what real love and real relationships are about. I gave up looking for it. No more searching or hoping that the one I had feelings for so long ago is still that person, or trying to figure out how to handle situations. I need new, not old. Why settle, right? I didn't in the past, so I refuse to do so now. Thanks to you for helping me figure out that I was on a fast track to being with one more person that could not love me like I deserve. I fall for things sometimes, and I let my lonely heart lead, but not anymore. Not today and not with me.

Goodnight.